There’s nothing more I would want right now than to have a break. A break from everyone and everything. To not have to answer phone calls from the overzealous doctor at 7am and 9pm, who seems to be punishing the rest of us just because he’s on call. To not have to come home to 9 people after a long day at work. I used to actually look forward to coming home when work gets tough but where do I go to now? And worst of all, I’m running out of excuses to not meet the stupid insurance agents. I’m almost a fugitive in my own goddamn country.
I’m 23…it’s not supposed to be this complicated yet. I used to have this need to overcome all these problems…but then I realised if they can’t be solved, then they are no longer problems - it’s reality. I’m not saying I want to run away from it all. I’m just saying I need a break. Everyone needs a break sometimes, no?
I don’t necessarily want to be happy; I just want to stop feeling miserable.
Her eyes don’t light up when she hears your name anymore. She doesn’t get chills when you walk by and her heart doesn’t race when you smile at her. You don’t get to her like you used to. You’re just a bad memory in the back of her mind. So don’t be surprised next time you make your way past her and she doesn’t even glance your way. And don’t bother trying to talk to her, you wont get a response. She’s over fighting the same losing battle. The saddest part is that you have no one to blame but yourself. She gave you every chance you could ask for. And you fucked up every time. Now she walks around with nothing but a smile on her face, and she laughs louder then ever before. Looks like you’ve lost her.
I don’t like what you are doing, but I won’t insult you for it. You know why? Because who you are tomorrow may be better than who I am today.
-Tariq Ramadan
O my god, whenever You bestow a favour on me, my thankfulness to You is not as much as it should be; whenever any misfortune afflicts me, my endurance falls short of the requisite. So You are He who did not forsake me even though my thankfulness in return of Your favour was insufficient; You are He who did not abandon me even though my endurance in the hour of misfortune was inadequate; You are He who did not disgrace me even though You saw me doing evil deeds; You are He who did not punish me even though You noticed every sin I committed, so send blessings on Muhammad and on the children of Muhammad, forgive my sins, cure my ailment verily You have power over all things.
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Maybe she was looking in all the wrong places. After all, he was just a dunya guy, he would give her the happiness of the dunya for just a few day, weeks, months maybe and then they would never be the ‘happily ever after couple’ like Muhammad sallallahu alyhe wa sallam and Khadijah radi Allah hu Anha.
For she realized that a bond made for the sake of the dunya lacked the basic crucial ingredient: the barakah of Allah. If she started a relationship which wasn’t blessed by Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala, she would ruin her entire life for the man who looked so charming but whose heart was attached to the dunya.
She was concerned about her future progeny and she decided that she didn’t want to raise up her future children oblivious and ignorant of Islam. She decided that she’d look at his deen, his character and his ikhlaq, for if those qualities in him were well grounded, he would turn into the greatest blessing of her life - her better half.
With all the traffic of thoughts in her mind, she came across a verse in the Quran which lay open in her hands and the verse she saw made her cry and she made sincere dua from her heart and decided that she wanted her better half to be someone who would hold her hand, help bring the Sunnah and Shariah in her life, take her out for ice-cream, help solve all her problems and when he couldnt he would be just a good listener and also he would take her to jannah. The verse she read was:
One of His signs is that He created for you spouses of your own species, so that you might find comfort with them. And He put mutual love and affection in your hearts. Surely in this there are lessons for the thinking people.” [30:21]](http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_ly7bshDcwM1r73j5co1_1280.jpg)
Maybe she was looking in all the wrong places. After all, he was just a dunya guy, he would give her the happiness of the dunya for just a few day, weeks, months maybe and then they would never be the ‘happily ever after couple’ like Muhammad sallallahu alyhe wa sallam and Khadijah radi Allah hu Anha.
For she realized that a bond made for the sake of the dunya lacked the basic crucial ingredient: the barakah of Allah. If she started a relationship which wasn’t blessed by Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala, she would ruin her entire life for the man who looked so charming but whose heart was attached to the dunya.
She was concerned about her future progeny and she decided that she didn’t want to raise up her future children oblivious and ignorant of Islam. She decided that she’d look at his deen, his character and his ikhlaq, for if those qualities in him were well grounded, he would turn into the greatest blessing of her life - her better half.
With all the traffic of thoughts in her mind, she came across a verse in the Quran which lay open in her hands and the verse she saw made her cry and she made sincere dua from her heart and decided that she wanted her better half to be someone who would hold her hand, help bring the Sunnah and Shariah in her life, take her out for ice-cream, help solve all her problems and when he couldnt he would be just a good listener and also he would take her to jannah. The verse she read was:
One of His signs is that He created for you spouses of your own species, so that you might find comfort with them. And He put mutual love and affection in your hearts. Surely in this there are lessons for the thinking people.” [30:21]
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I always wonder why birds stay in the same place when they can fly anywhere on Earth. And then I ask myself the same question. -Harun Yahya
